Stay young and invincible

A friend that has been staying with me these past few weeks kept telling me "you're a kid!" every time I did something fun/stupid/out of the ordinary.

I get a lot of "you're crazy/funny/original/something" whatever enhances the fact that I'm not your regular 30 year old. I actually like people calling me crazy. I mean,  when I look at "serious" people's life I do want to be as crazy as can be.

But "you're a kid" was new and felt right. If it means being candide, innocent, carefree and looking at life in amazement, hell yeah I want to be a kid! Trying hard to be one actually.

Finding my way back to my true nature and my inner child is all I've been trying to do lately.  It's all anyone on the path of awakening is trying to do I think. Unlearning and getting rid of tons of things, getting detached, simplifying everything.

I wish I could forget everything I know about things and people and get rid of my judgement and comparisons. I'd like to look at everything as if it's the first time I'm laying eyes on it. I want to feel instead of thinking, I want to be true and authentic instead of reacting to my conditioning (call that education if you will).

Kids know how to be free and happy before we teach them to be and act as they're told, to be like everyone else.

Picasso said it perfectly "It took me 4 years to paint like Raphael, but a lifetime to paint like a child."

Be crazy, be childish, be yourself, be happy.

Right Here, Right Now

Letter to a friend.

Now is the perfect time to be happy, to do whatever you want to do, to be whoever you want to be.

Don't wait for tomorrow, it will never come. There's only Now.

Live. Love. Laugh. 
Life is perfect.

If what you need is a friend that feels sorry for you, pardon me but I'm not that friend.

I am your friend and I love you but I won't feed the vicious circle of self pity.

I was caught in it for way too long and I'm not going back there.

I am a hopeless optimistic, always have been. 

It made it actually worse when I was feeling down because I kept thinking it would get better and when it didn't it crushed me. 

The thing is, it didn't get better because it never would. 

Life doesn't change, it's your perception of it that does.

So when I finally felt better, things hadn't actually changed, I had changed. 

Life is never good nor bad, it just IS and you feel good or bad about it, but it's only a perception. 

You can choose to look at it one way or the other. You can go through the exact same experience at two different times in your life and be happy about it the first time and angry or sad the next. 

So I'll say it again. 

Life is perfect. 

This exact moment is perfect because it is as it is, and it couldn't be any other way.

If my being happy makes you angry or sad I'm sorry, but I won't stop being happy because of it. 

I won't sacrifice my happiness to make you feel better. Not anymore. 

I used to do that a lot, sacrificing my happiness trying to please people. But it never made anyone happy and I was definitely not either.

I realized I can't make anyone happy, only they can. And nobody but me can make me happy.

So there I am, happy.

I love you, no matter what you think of me right now and how you see me.

Never doubt for one second that if you need me I'll be there. 

But I am going to stop trying to reach out to you because I can't make you come to me. I can't be next to you through your hard times unless you want me to. 

So I am here, with open arms and open heart, and I'm not going anywhere.

If you need to talk I'll listen, if you need to cry I'll hold you. 

But do know that I'll probably say something along the lines of :

"Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end".

Life is perfect. Embrace it.