Right Here, Right Now

Letter to a friend.

Now is the perfect time to be happy, to do whatever you want to do, to be whoever you want to be.

Don't wait for tomorrow, it will never come. There's only Now.

Live. Love. Laugh. 
Life is perfect.

If what you need is a friend that feels sorry for you, pardon me but I'm not that friend.

I am your friend and I love you but I won't feed the vicious circle of self pity.

I was caught in it for way too long and I'm not going back there.

I am a hopeless optimistic, always have been. 

It made it actually worse when I was feeling down because I kept thinking it would get better and when it didn't it crushed me. 

The thing is, it didn't get better because it never would. 

Life doesn't change, it's your perception of it that does.

So when I finally felt better, things hadn't actually changed, I had changed. 

Life is never good nor bad, it just IS and you feel good or bad about it, but it's only a perception. 

You can choose to look at it one way or the other. You can go through the exact same experience at two different times in your life and be happy about it the first time and angry or sad the next. 

So I'll say it again. 

Life is perfect. 

This exact moment is perfect because it is as it is, and it couldn't be any other way.

If my being happy makes you angry or sad I'm sorry, but I won't stop being happy because of it. 

I won't sacrifice my happiness to make you feel better. Not anymore. 

I used to do that a lot, sacrificing my happiness trying to please people. But it never made anyone happy and I was definitely not either.

I realized I can't make anyone happy, only they can. And nobody but me can make me happy.

So there I am, happy.

I love you, no matter what you think of me right now and how you see me.

Never doubt for one second that if you need me I'll be there. 

But I am going to stop trying to reach out to you because I can't make you come to me. I can't be next to you through your hard times unless you want me to. 

So I am here, with open arms and open heart, and I'm not going anywhere.

If you need to talk I'll listen, if you need to cry I'll hold you. 

But do know that I'll probably say something along the lines of :

"Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end".

Life is perfect. Embrace it.

Merci

*****english below*****

Lettre à mes parents.

Parce que je le dis à tout le monde mais pas à vous,

Parce que j'ai raté l'occasion à la fête des mère et que je prends de l'avance sur la fête des pères,

Parce que savoir que vous le savez ne suffit pas,

Je voudrais vous dire que tous les jours je me dis que j'ai de la chance de vous avoir comme parents.

J'ai toujours su que j'avais une vie privilégiée, parfois parce qu'on me l'enviait, le plus souvent en regardant simplement autour de moi. Mais j'ai l'impression de trouver tous les jours une nouvelle raison de m'en rendre compte.

Merci de nous avoir aimé.

Merci de nous avoir éduqué.

Merci de nous avoir donné accès à une culture si large et si riche.

Merci de nous avoir donné le sens de la famille.

Merci de nous avoir donné le sens des responsabilités.

Merci de nous laisser faire nos choix et de nous soutenir quoi qu'il arrive.

Merci de n'avoir jamais douté de ma réussite.

Merci de nous avoir rendu indépendants.

Merci de nous avoir offert une maison avec jardin, une scolarité aussi longue qu'on l'aurait voulu, des vacances aussi nombreuses, variées et enrichissantes.

Etre née en France est une chance. Mais tout le reste ce n'est pas de la chance, c'est grâce à vous.

Je sais que vous êtes fiers de moi, je sais aussi que c'est dur pour vous que j'ai besoin d'être si loin pour m'épanouir. Mais c'est grâce à vous si je suis là et si je suis épanouie. Je ne suis pas là où je suis, ni qui je suis, par chance. J'ai fait ce qu'il faut pour, mais parce que vous m'en avez donné les moyens. C'est grâce à vous et avec vous que je me suis construite.

Ce n'est pas toujours facile d'être "une fille super indépendante", ça veut dire que j'avance seule, que je fais mes choix seule, c'est parfois angoissant, un peu terrifiant même, mais quoi qu'il se passe dans ma vie je sais que vous êtes derrière moi.

Je vous aime,

*****

Thank You - Letter to my parents.

Because I'm telling everyone but you,

Because I missed the opportunity on mother's day and I'm early for father's day,

Because knowing that you know it isn't enough,

I want you to know that everyday I think to myself how lucky I am to have you as my parents.

I always knew I was somehow priviledged, sometimes because people were envious, most times just by looking around me. But it's like every day I find a new reason to realize it.

Thank you for loving us.

Thank you for educating us.

Thank you for giving us access to a wide and rich culture.

Thank you for giving us the sense of family.

Thank you for giving us the sens of responsabilities.

Thank you for letting us make our own choices and supporting us no matter what.

Thank you for never doubting of my success.

Thank you for making us independant.

Thank you for a house with garden, a scholarship as long as we wanted to, various & enriching holidays.

Being born in France is lucky. But everything else isn't luck, it's thanks to you.

I know you are proud of me, I also know it's hard for you that I need to be this far away to blossom. But it's because of you if I'm here and fulfilled. I'm not where I am nor who I am, by chance. I did what it took, but because you gave me the means. I build myself with you and thanks to you.

It isn't always easy to be the "super independant girl". It means moving forward on my own, making my choices on my own. It can be stressful, terrifying even, but whatever goes on in my life I know you're behind me.

I love you.